Monday, June 30, 2014

Because your story matters more than your stats

I saw this as a blog post title the other day:

"Because your story matters more than your stats


Isn't this good news? I was sharing with Jason tonight that even though my marathon was just about a week ago and that I am able to put all the intense training aside and take a break for a while that your race has really just begun. 

And that's why these emails and blog posts are going to continue for a while to come alongside and to keep on cheering for you.  There are some marathons known for lots of spectators (like Boston and NYC and Nashville along Music Row) and some that are hard to follow and cheer due to the ruggedness of the course.  I just want you to know that even if there seems that there is no one cheering some days that there still are voices shouting "Go Abby! Go Jens!!!".  That's the purpose of these emails to keep pushing you forward, even if it just a little bit further each day. 

This message today is just to remind you that in the midst of all of this that your story matters more than your stats, and oh what a beautiful story you have to tell.... 




Sunday, June 29, 2014

a push up the hill

Today after church, we went on a hike up Pitcher Canyon in Wenatchee. 

As we were hiking up the canyon, Taylor was hot and was getting tired. At several points, I put my hand on his back and pushed him up some of the steep parts.  It was of course reminiscent of last weekend in the race when Elizabeth put her hand on my back and pushed me to the finish line.   It felt good to be able to help Taylor and to be the one who was feeling stronger and able to give the push.

I know that even though you may be feeling spent, exhausted and in need of a push
that there will come a time when you will be able to give someone else the push they need. 
You will be the one who will be able to push them up the hill.  

In fact. your story is one that is already having that ripple effect. Your perseverance and your stamina is inspiring and has already been one that has inspired others (perhaps more than you will ever know).  

Press on up the hills today (and know that I'm sending prayers your way to keep you going and to give you a push you to the top). 






Saturday, June 28, 2014

Story Time

Spoiler Alert: I sent you two packages on Monday. 
One had some goodies from the marathon and one had this book in it. 

This book is SO inspirational.  One of the pages I loved the most was this one at the very beginning: 

This page came to mind last Saturday during my race and I thought about how blessed I was to have my crew there along the way cheering and to have Elizabeth there running with me at the end when I was struggling and feeling "limited".  And when I read this page, I also think of you all--- about the support that you've had along the way too when you have felt "limited" at times. 

We could write a children's book and have a page like this... 
"....Most babies weren't Jens Herman..." :) 

I wanted to share with you a video I also found about the book as it is done really well. 
Happy Story Time! 



Friday, June 27, 2014

good words from camp this week


This week, I have had the chance to be a counselor in Anna's 6th grade day camp group and it has been good to get a little window into her heart a bit more and to get to know some more of the girls in her youth group at UPC.  

I got to go for a run while they were playing Capture the Flag today, and while I was a bit sore, it was nice to be running again after taking some time off this week.  

While I was running, I thought of these two stories from the week we have been focusing on with the kids.  The first one on the feeding of the 5000 stood out to me with this line: "Jesus tells them to make the people sit down.  Jesus purposely puts them in a posture to receive..." The comment that they were able to notice the miracle because they were in a posture to receive reminded me of you. You both have been put in this posture to receive. I am praying today that you will see this as an opportunity to notice and to receive from God whatever He has for you today.  


The second story (Day 5 above) also has some good words that might hit home too.
I wonder if any of us really understands the scope of what has happened in your lives with this transplant and the story God is writing through you.  I know that while the journey to understanding is indeed long that I continue to marvel and give thanks for today and for your lives and story.  

Thursday, June 26, 2014

Go 'Dores!!!

I know there has been some cheering in Pittsburg over this news!! 



celebrating with you and your Alma Mater. :) 

The article I read mentioned that this team had proven to be the most resilient group Corbin has ever coached.  That can be said for you too- your resiliency is to be celebrated for sure as well! 






Wednesday, June 25, 2014

psalm 66:16

I cannot thank you enough for the incredible package that arrived in the mail....
it could not be a more perfect gift and I am so humbled. I will cherish it always. 
It will be a continued reminder to listen in to God's heartbeat for you... 
Come and listen, all you who fear God,
    and I will tell you what he did for me.
Psalm 66:16

roadblock

road·block

noun an obstruction in a road; something that blocks progress or prevents accomplishment of an objective; any hindrance 


Yesterday as I was biking back from campus, I had to stop at Fremont Bridge as the bridge was up to let boats through. As I stood there, I thought about the roadblocks that have been in your path up to this point and the ones you are facing on this very day, and I simply prayed for you all to have patience as you are held up at these obstructions along the way. 

I looked over and saw these pedestrians waiting for the bridge to come back down, and they seemed so content to stop and enjoy the break and the vista. On the other hand, there were people around me checking their watches and just wanting to get on with their commute.  This was a reminder of what I am hoping and praying for you that you can take these delays as things that will be opportunities for taking a deep breath and counting the gifts before you. 



Tuesday, June 24, 2014

eventually...

When I was talking to my mom after the race on Saturday, 
she mentioned this quote that she had just read recently. 

"....help is always on the way, 100% of the time....
when I call out, God will be near, and hear, and help eventually.  
Of course, it's the "eventually" that throws one into despair." 
Anne Lamott

I imagine that you all feel that exhaustion and despair sometimes when you are trying to get through the days to the "eventually" looming out there.  Know that I am continuing to cheer for you and praying for strength and hope and grit. 

p.s. I have started teaching at SPU for my summer MAT class this quarter. I'm biking to and from campus each day. Just wanted you to know that Run4Jens can also easily be turned into Bike4Jens! These are easy times for me to be praying for you so know that you'll coming on lots of bike rides with me in the next month. :) 

Monday, June 23, 2014

summer reading

We read this book for our mother-daughter neighborhood book club 
and this was a quote that I shared on Sunday at our group: 

“Often the search proves more profitable than the goal.” 
- Mrs. Basil E. Frankweiler  

Sometimes the experiences on the way to a goal are more important than the goal itself. 
I found this to be so true in this marathon journey and thought you would be able to relate to this little nugget that I found in the book... 

I hope that you all are able to find a few moments 
to catch a some good summer reading 
and find a few nuggets of wisdom along the way. 










Sunday, June 22, 2014

God Carrying Us

Just because the race is over for me does not mean that I will not keep sending you things as they come to mind.  I may need to take a little time off from running this week, but I will still be posting... (because the race is not over for you- it has just begun....)

This came in my inbox this morning and the picture was profound in thinking about God carrying you two through the suffering.  The reflection below written by this Japanese artist has some good things to say too, but mostly it's the picture that speaks to me as I think about your story.

With my sore body hobbling around today, I am reminded of how sore you two are too- physically and emotionally.  Praying for strength for you today and for you to have the assurance of God carrying you.

ArtWay Visual Meditation June 22, 2014


Soichi Watanabe: God Carrying Us


The Path Shown by Trouble

by Soichi Watanabe

Even to your old age I am he,
even when you turn grey I will carry you.
I have made, and I will bear;
I will carry and will save.
Isaiah 46:4

My hometown of Ishinomaki was damaged immensely by the tsunami in East Japan in 2011. My mother was living alone on the hill area of Hiyoriyama. She lost many of her close friends and relatives. Her distress in her loss made her dementia grow worse. Last February she entered a nursing home. Until now I was unable to support her and so were my teachers and friends. This causes me great pain. The Big Earthquake, the tsunami and the accidents with the nuclear plant in Fukushima continue to trouble me deeply even now.

Chapters 40-55 of Isaiah are called the second Isaiah. They contain the prophecies about the release of the Israelites from slavery in Babylon. During their suffering Isaiah told them about the promise of their return to their homeland. He told them to depend on the God who made all things, who made us and will carry us when we turn grey, the God who will save us. He also repeatedly warned them never to depend on idols. The Japanese people were told that nuclear power plants were economical and safe. That was inaccurateEverything made by humans is imperfect, however excellent. It may cause unexpected accidents and loss.

Isaiah asked, ‘What is the meaning of suffering?’ He answered that we experience suffering so that we may be able to see the right path. Humans still have a lot to learn. In Japan we were exposed to radiation three times.

Last Christmas our choir sang ‘The Desert Shall Rejoice’, based on Isaiah 35:1-5. As I sang this song, my thoughts went back to the disaster area. ‘The wilderness and the dry land shall be glad, the desert shall rejoice and blossom.’ My heart was moved deeply and filled with encouragement.

Jesus said to his disciples, 
In the world you face persecution. But take courage; I have conquered the world!’ (John 16:33).

Saturday, June 21, 2014

Victory Lap

4:30 a.m. wake up before the alarm and can't go back to sleep (after a restless night of sleep anyway) 
5:15 a.m.  get dressed and eat breakfast of a banana and a powerbar 
6:00  a.m. leave the house to get to Seattle Center for the start 
6:15  a.m. find a great parking spot just a few blocks away
6:30  a.m. find a port-a-potty with a line that was not too long for a last pit stop 
6:45  a.m. walk over to the start line
6:50  a.m. talk to some folks in my corral- One guy sees my sign about Jens and tells me that he cannot wait to tell his wife about him when I explain about the double lung transplant. His wife's brother had CF but died when he was 15. He was so inspired about Jens. Your story is incredibly compelling.. 
6:52 a.m. overhear another woman in my corral explain that she is doing the half marathon today and not the full because she was hit by a car a few months ago and that she is still recovering. A powerful reminder that everybody has a story. 
6:55  a.m. find a pace team that matches the time I am aiming for
6:58  a.m. hear someone sing the National Anthem
7:00  a.m. the gun goes off
7:04  a.m. our corral (#5) starts 
8:08 a.m. look for my crew at mile 8 but they are not there yet (I realize that our pace team is going a wee bit faster than I anticipated and this meant that I was at this marker before they thought I would be there) 
8:36 a.m. find Elizabeth, Jason, Anna, Taylor, Gene and Bette there at mile 12 
wave and smile at the cheering squad and then Elizabeth runs with me for the next few hours. 

The first half of the marathon was FAST and I was doing what I could to just keep up with the pacers.   Even at mile 2, I had started my mantra of praying "Help me, Help me, Help me" on three steps followed by "Thank you, thank You, Thank You" on the next three steps.  Then I would do it again with "Help them, Help them, Help them" (Abby and Jens) and then "Thank you, Thank you, Thank you." (for what you have done for them).  And so it went for several more hours. 

Those prayers are ones that Anne Lamott says are the only two prayers we need- "Help me" and "Thank you." She then revised that and added another prayer of "Wow" to prayers we need in our vocabulary.   She writes about these three simple prayers that are essential to coming through tough times in her book Help, Thanks, Wow.   As I saw Mount Rainier shining in all its glory today or as I remembered Jens' video of bounding up the stairs to the apartment on Monday, it was easy to say, "Wow" on my run. 

When I found Elizabeth at mile 12, she said that we needed to slow down. I knew this for sure as I had pushed it pretty hard and was running on fumes already from being sick this past week.  She also knew something was up when I was not very chatty as I usually love to talk when I run. I was working hard on my mantra and trying to focus on keeping up the pace.  At the half way mark, I crossed that line at 1:42 which is the fastest I've ever run 13.1 miles. (probably not the best strategy for how my body was doing this week, but a cool personal record for the day especially since things kind of went south from here. :) 

We slowed down and then began to knock off mile after mile.  Around mile 16 or so as we were going across the bridge, I asked Elizabeth to push me up the hill. She asked me if I meant literally or figuratively. I said both- and like my friend Susan had done in Knoxville, she pushed me up the next hill with her hand on my back.  I cannot tell you how good it felt to have the support when I knew my strength was starting to fail me.  She did this for me on and off for the rest of the race when I needed it. And the beautiful thing was that I told her that I felt like I was Jens and she was Abby. I was trying so hard to finish the race (but it was so hard!) and she was my support- so faithful and giving and the best friend I could ask for. It felt like we were praying with our bodies in this tangible way of acting out part of your story that has unfolded and is continuing to be told. 

Around mile 18, she held my hand at one point and was a bit worried because I was really cold (and it was getting kind of hot outside as the sun was shining bright).  I even had goosebumps. It's pretty convenient to have my best friend be the best runner I know AND for her to be a fabulous family practice doctor. :)  She knew that this could be a sign that my body could be going into shock and that the blood flow was just going to my vital organs (and not to my extremities).  She kept asking me if I felt dizzy to make sure that it was not getting worse.  Thankfully, I was able to keep going, but she did encourage me to walk at the water stations and at a few other places.  I've never walked in a marathon (and this is #7 today) and I told her I was nervous to walk as I was not sure I would be able to get into a stride again, but I felt like it was wise to listen to her and I followed the doctor's orders.

We got to mile 20 and I knew we just had another 10K to go. But also, as I looked at my watch, I knew I was not going to be able to reach the goal I had of knocking a little bit off my time from Portland last fall.  I was okay with it and just accepted it for what it was that today I was not on top of my game.  It was the best I could do.  And I knew it was okay to let that goal go and to recognize that it just did not matter. 


The verse came to mind as I was running from Matthew 6: 
19"Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. 20"But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys, and where thieves do not break in or steal;… (Randall Goodgame has this on his Sing the Bible CD with the African Children's Choir singing these verses.) 

My treasure has been the last 16 weeks. The medal today is one that moths and rust will destroy, and the time I finished the race (that is forever on the Internet! :)) does not matter!  That will fade away, but what does matter, Abby and Jens, is the way that the Lord has whispered His love for you over and over and over to me in the time and space I carved out for training for this marathon. That will never fade away. And during the race, I was able to keep this perspective and embrace whatever came my way in the rest of the course.  

In some ways, my race today seemed to fit where you are once again. Things are not smooth sailing for you yet.  As you are healing, it still really hurts, and days are really long and grueling sometimes.  Today was yet another reminder for me to lean into my dependence on God for strength for the journey before me on this day and for you too in the days ahead. 






really hurting at the end, but still felt enough strength to smile as we saw our crew again

just a few yards from the finish... 





there is indeed joy in the journey 

a great cheering squad and support team!! 


“But grace can be the experience of a second wind, when even though what you want is clarity and resolution, what you get is stamina and poignancy and the strength to hang on.” 


Friday, June 20, 2014

Counting Down.....

RUN4JENS!!!! 






rock on, Abby and Jens... :) 

walking by the Mariners Moose for Jens on the way back to my car 
after picking up my race number at the Expo... 

and walking by a cool penguin for Abby... 

Anna helping me get ready to fly with wings on my shoes
 after dinner tonight.... 








I had to laugh this afternoon about the comment below about the fact that I am supposed to be in good health to participate.  Oh well- there's not much I can do about feeling under the weather this week.  Praying for strength for the miles ahead tomorrow in spite of this nasty cold. This has just been one more reason to keep on praying for you as you both continue to fight the good fight.  You both deserve a victory medal at the end of each day, Jens and Abby... 


I'll be running each and every mile for you all tomorrow... 
RUN4JENS!! 




Thursday, June 19, 2014

the work is in the barn...

I loved this comment on my training plan the other day- "The work is in the barn..." 

Since March 4, I've logged 580.52 miles (at least the ones that I have clocked using my RunKeeper app on my phone.) 
And yet, tonight, I've got a stuffy nose and a summer cold that is wiping me out. All I can say is that I would not trade any of those miles for the way it has helped bridge the miles between Seattle, Nashville & Pittsburg. 
I'll do my best on Saturday with you both tied up in my shoelaces for each step - no matter how it goes, it will still be a gift to Run4Jens! 

RUN 4 JENS
DATE MILES
4-Mar 5
6-Mar 5.28
8-Mar 4.15
10-Mar 8
11-Mar 5.79
13-Mar 2.23
14-Mar 6.52
15-Mar 10
17-Mar 5
18-Mar 6
19-Mar 4
20-Mar 8
22-Mar 5.01
23-Mar 11.69
25-Mar 7.17
26-Mar 5.21
27-Mar 9.05
29-Mar 6
30-Mar 12.02
1-Apr 7.01
2-Apr 4.01
3-Apr 9.01
5-Apr 13.27
6-Apr 5.3
8-Apr 5.12
10-Apr 9.12
13-Apr 3
15-Apr 9.95
16-Apr 5.01
17-Apr 8
19-Apr 14.01
20-Apr 6.01
22-Apr 6.68
23-Apr 5.44
24-Apr 9.44
25-Apr 7.01
26-Apr 16.02
29-Apr 6.01
30-Apr 5.04
1-May 10
2-May 5.23
4-May 18.03
6-May 6.45
8-May 9.43
10-May 6.68
11-May 10.03
13-May 8.33
14-May 9.54
15-May 12.7
17-May 20.01
20-May 9.75
21-May 6.06
22-May 11.57
24-May 7.01
25-May 9.37
27-May 13.48
28-May 6.01
29-May 8
30-May 6.18
31-May 20.03
3-Jun 10.03
4-Jun 6.02
6-Jun 7.83
7-Jun 5.02
8-Jun 13.01
10-Jun 7.38
11-Jun 6
12-Jun 7.25
14-Jun 5
15-Jun 6.01
17-Jun 8.5
18-Jun 4
TOTAL as of JUNE 18 580.52






the best way to start the day...

When Jason and I told the kids in January about his news about his layoff, we sat at the dining room table and each prayed for this situation that was before us.  When it was Anna's turn to pray, she simply said, "Dear God, please help Daddy get a new job. We know this is in Your hands."

I think of this often and how I think she nailed it here. There's really not much more to be said.

This morning, when I woke up, so many things were going through my head.  I was reminded of this prayer from Anna back at the start of the year, and I simply tried to place each one of my thoughts and worries in God's hands.

All the thoughts about the race coming up, worries about not getting the best night of sleep, wondering about the tightness in my legs,  the list of things before me today, Anna and Taylor's last day of school, Jason's latest job interviews - these are in His hands.

All my thoughts about my conversation with you last night- the mountains of pills to manage, the schedule you all are trying to tackle each day, for Jens' body to continue to heal and to not reject the lungs, for your emotional strength and perseverance, for the times of feeling isolated and lonely, for the strength to live into each day and enjoy the moments you do have together- these are in His hands.

Just know that before my feet hit the floor this morning that you all were placed in God's hands. I don't know a better way to start the day...




Wednesday, June 18, 2014

you are adding to the beauty BEAUTIFULLY....

for Abby.... 
just a reminder of what I shared with you on the phone this evening... 
You are indeed adding to the beauty 
around you in this amazing story
BEAUTIFULLY... 

When I hear this song, I always think of you... 



Add to the Beauty 
We come with beautiful secrets
We come with purposes written on our hearts, written on our souls
We come to every new morning
With possibilities only we can hold, that only we can hold

Redemption comes in strange place, small spaces 
Calling out the best of who we are

And I want to add to the beauty
To tell a better story
I want to shine with the light
That's burning up inside

It comes in small inspirations
It brings redemption to life and work
To our lives and our work

It comes in loving community
It comes in helping a soul find it's worth

Redemption comes in strange places, small spaces
Calling out the best of who we are

And I want to add to the beauty
To tell a better story
I want to shine with the light
That's burning up inside

This is grace, an invitation to be beautiful
This is grace, an invitation

Redemption comes in strange places, small spaces
Calling out our best

And I want to add to the beauty
To tell a better story
I want to shine with the light
That's burning up inside